Orgasm Training

i love to cum. my entire body quakes and convulses. A powerful charge runs all through me, wave after wave, and covers me with a light coating of perspiration. it’s wonderful. i think about it a lot – a lot more than i should. But it’s something i haven’t experienced in over four months.

i'm not celibate, and my lovers are quite capable of bringing me to orgasm. i haven’t cum, because i haven’t been allowed to cum. My Owner strictly controls my body’s pleasure and pain. i'm not permitted to reach orgasm (or even masturbate) without His consent, and when He commands it, i must climax almost instantly. Failure in either guarantees terrible punishment.

Men have known for thousands of years that girls are more easily managed when their bodily functions are regulated. This is especially true of the female orgasm. Unlike the Male orgasm, which is the very basis of reproduction (and therefore, of life itself), there is no biological necessity for the female orgasm. girls never need to cum. Some cultures practice an extreme form of orgasm denial known as female circumcision – the surgical removal of the clitoris. The effectiveness of this method cannot be refuted, but it is a severe and permanent measure.

The reasons for denying a girl orgasm are fairly obvious. A girl pursuing her own pleasure is not wholly focused on pleasing her Master – her one true purpose in life. Failing in this mission, she is useless. Thus it seems a kindness to deprive her of one aspect of life (the orgasm) rather than allow her entire existence to be wasted. While some Men dismiss the matter at that, others believe that a subtler approach bears more fruit. Rather than completely denying a girl orgasm, some Men strictly control a girl’s orgasms, granting them infrequently as rare gifts.

There are two advantages to this approach. Firstly, girls respond to both the carrot and the stick, and an orgasm makes a very nice carrot (and vice versa?). More importantly, training a girl to control her orgasms teaches her discipline and submission. she learns that her body is completely under her Master’s command, and it takes real concentration and devotion to keep climax in check.

This is how i have been raised. It hasn’t been easy, and i’m not yet fully accomplished. Accidents still happen, particularly when i’m eaten. Cunilingus is sometimes used as a test of my control, and sometimes, it’s just one of my girlfriends showing me that she can exert her will over my body if she so chooses. (It’s difficult when your lover tells you that she loves what you’re doing, but she’s not allowed to climax.)

But more frequently, my failures are on the other side. i’ve missed several opportunities to cum by not being able to orgasm on command. When the command is anticipated, i can prepare myself and release at the instant the word is spoken. But when i don’t expect it when the word comes, i'm often too slow in executing. Within a few seconds, my Owner will grow impatient and withdrawal permission. Not only will i have deprived myself of a hugely generous gift, but i’m sure to be soundly whipped for my disobedience. Of course i could fake an orgasm. (i'm quite good at it.) But lying to her Owner is the worst sin a girl can commit. i have lied to my Owner and faked orgasms for him when i was younger, but i don’t do it any more. i'd rather suffer the lash than live with that guilt.

My other failing is in the area of masturbation and self-touch. Masturbation is a vital component of orgasm training. A girl simply cannot learn control without practice through masturbation. But how and when a girl masturbates are strictly up to her Owner’s discretion. When first learning discipline, the worst times for me were at night, lying alone in my bed. One of the (intentional) consequences of orgasm training is that the girl thinks about sex – a lot. Lying in the dark, it was difficult to keep my fingers away.

When i confessed this to my Owner, He wisely bound my hands to my headboard as he tucked me in and released me the next morning. Bound in this manner, i'd grow even more aroused. i'd wither and writhe. i'd turn on my belly and rub against the mattress, necessitating that my feet me bound, spread apart, so that i remained securely on my back. Of course, this lead to even greater arousal. i'd fantasize about being taken by force in this vulnerable state. But it did keep me from rubbing. i learned greater control in time.

i'm still occasionally bound for the night, either as described above or trussed up, “hog tied” and gagged. But this is for other reasons. Other than a brief self-caress of a breast or a fleeting pass over my bare cunt (both of which i dutifully report and for which i accept my deserved punishment), i don’t touch unless directed to do so.

i'm certain that these measures have made me a better girl, and hopefully, they have made me better able to serve and please my Owner. My Master. My Everything.